The Endless Cycle

One thing that often happens to me is I’ll start a project looking forward to seeing it’s completion, and then later in the project’s lifetime I’ll give up, scrap the project, and start a new one. This happens over and over again, and it’s honestly emotionally exhausting. This is partially due to being in a loop of “this code isn’t good enough”, which in result can cause things like imposter syndrome, lack of motivation, and similar, a great explaination of this is a xkcd comic named Good Code....

April 19, 2021 · 3 min · Hanna Rose

The Downward Dysphoric Spiral

I came out as trans around June of last year I believe, near my birthday. It’s certainly experience, questioning your gender, and while I do certainly think of myself as female, I can imagine myself wearing dresses, wearing feminine undergarments and doing other things such as wearing makeup occassionally (which isn’t necessarily feminine!) there is those times where I just start to feel a sense of unease, a sense of uncertainty, a sense of worry and dread that either I’m lying to myself, or that I will never look like what I want to....

March 29, 2021 · 4 min · Hanna Rose

How to Stay Motivated

One thing that happens when you’re developing projects, no matter big or small, is burnout. You work on a project for hours, days, weeks, months, or even years and you hit those points (or point if you’ve given up) of just feeling like it’s not worth it, or that the project is too big or tedious for someone like you. Today we’re going to be talking about that feeling and how to escape it, and how to stay motivated through projects, as well as learn from people in other projects how they push through it....

March 17, 2021 · 5 min · Hanna Rose

Maintaining Open Source Projects

Maintaining an open source projects is certainly a long and (possibly) never ending journey. Commit after commit, bug after bug, typo after typo you slowly grow traction for your library. But at what point is your project, no longer “your” project? What I mean by this is, once your project reaches the point where it has hundreds to thousands of followers, and your choices can impede the progress of other people’s projects, such as when you’re maintaining a library, can you actually make choices you want, to in your eyes change the library for the better?...

December 18, 2020 · 2 min · Hanna Rose